The Adventures of Pilialoha

I’ve always wondered what kind of life I would have if I didn’t choose choir over the softball.  Would I be skinny and off at a college with scholarship?  Would I be more accepted with my family since I’d be out bonding with my siblings just practicing till the late hours of the day.  Maybe I would have been able to form a better relationship with my brother and sisters if that happened.  Maybe we would understand each other better.  But maybe that will come with age.  I want to be able to actually have a conversation with them without feeling like a stranger.  Nowadays it feels like if I don’t speak TV then there’s nothing to talk about. :P  I guess I’m too sensitive to talk to anyway.  

In some shape, way, or form my outrageous sensitivity has been a huge problem in my life.  My irritability and quick to snap has cost me a couple relationships.  My tears have annoyed many.  It started in elementary school and I feel like it formed a bad relationship with my family as well..

When we were younger it seemed like it was my brother’s hobby to irritate me.  My older sister would get angry and annoyed when we fought.  Sometimes I would lock him out of the house and he would try to annoy me to let him back in.  I regret that a lot..  Because now I’m missing out on the amazingness that is my brother.  I know now how much of a bitch I was and that I should have treated him better.  He is full of talent with anything he does and I hope he gets into any college he chooses.  I know he’ll go far.

My older sister is amazingly smart.  She’s beautiful and goes for what she needs.  She’ll probably find the cure for cancer one day.  I always felt bad when I made her mad or upset.  I hope one day we can have a conversation that doesn’t involve The Office or 30 Rock.  But since I got a Netflix account I can build up some study material~

I’m happy I’m able to talk to my little sister comfortably.  True, sometimes she speaks like a punch line to a blonde joke.. but right now she reminds me of how I was when I was her age.  She’s thinking about tattoos, music and focusing on her Hawaiian culture that will make our mom proud.  If she wanted she could easily get into Kamehameha.  I’ll be more proud of her once the Twilight/Jersery Shore phase ends…..  It needs to stop.. ;)  

Hopefully I’ve done enough in my life to make my family proud, especially my parents.  I’m at the end of my college years and still at a point of not knowing what to do with my degree.  But one day I want to make them proud to have me as their daughter.  Not just some awkward stranger that visits now and then.  

I may be hard to understand and I’m way too sensitive than a normal human being but I just hope you’ll all love me as much as I love you.  I know I don’t show it a lot but I do.  

I love taking pictures of toys~ <3 <3

This comes up a lot in my head.  I just.. don’t think I have any reliable talents.  I’m graduating in 5 months and I don’t even know what I’m going to do after this.  I’ll have a B.S. in Sociology and a Women’s Studies certificate.  Studying sociology has been amazingly interesting and has given me a lot of opportunities.  One of them involves an internship with a program at a nearby prison called S.K.I.P. - Strengthening Keiki of Incarcerated Parents.  I’ve done a lot of research having to do with the topic and I thought if I were to go into social work having to do with children then this would be the best option, I would think.  Since when “social worker” comes to mind I think of dramatic scenes of parents and/or children are taken away in a scary scene that is usually paired with crying and obscenities… ><  With this program I would imagine it being happy and life changing.  One could hope..  If anything~ this program lasts for 2 1/2 weeks..  Hoping for the best.

Honestly… That’s the only thing I can think of that would go along with my sociology major.  

Photography is beginning to grow on me.  Like a wonderful tumor full of adventure. :D  I’ve enjoyed collecting Domo toy figurines (35 in total at the moment..) and getting into the toy photography community.  Thanks to my mom I’ve become a proud owner of a Canon DSLR T3i.  The past couple of months have been full of experience and amazement.  Who wouldn’t want that as a career?  But since the outside world is so harsh then there probably is no chance of me ever making it as a photographer.  I’m just going with what I know for a job choice at the moment.  It’s something I feel confident with.  I’m still a newbie but I’m working to be amazing. >D

Excitement!  Getting e-mails from a potential internship with a parent-child connection program~  For the past month I’ve been reading articles upon articles and typing research papers about these programs that help incarcerated parents develop relationships with their children.  The program I would be interning with the program SKIP, Strengthening Keiki of Incarcerated Parents.  The program helps decrease child negligence and child abuse when the parent returns from incarceration.  For me, I found this as a great opportunity to create memories for these families.  This program only runs for two week after all…

I really want to get involved with events that reach out to all sorts of families.  I love the idea of Love ReUnited or just making memories to make a brighter day for someone.  That is the main goal of my photography.  To catch moments in our lives to keep with us forever and always. ^____^

Well today wasn’t very adventurous… I did not do well with the diet since temptation of sweets took over and I didn’t have time to go to the gym.  So not the best day.  I’m planning to go to the gym with my bestie tomorrow before I work again in the afternoon.  I really need to do some running and weight lifting.  I’m not one to celebrate being a stick thin.  I love my curves and of course my awesome waist.  I just want to be healthy and even more hot.  <3

Last night I watched a documentary called, “Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead.”  An Australian man named, Joe Cross films his attempt to regain a healthy lifestyle by going on a juice fast.  To me it seems really extreme but effective!  The man lost 90 something pounds in just 3 months..  I wish I had that kind of willpower.  And $100 for a juicer would also be nice..  I signed up to actually start a juice fast.  I really want to be able to eat healthy..  I just feel so guilty when I eat too much or eat sweets..  Sure I would enjoy an occasional treat once in a while but I think I should really dedicate myself to a diet and exercise program that works for me.  Hopefully with all the exercise I’m doing I’ll be able to keep my bra size.  I just bought new ones!! D:

Hello~  My name is Simone Pilialoha Gardner.  But you can call me Pili.  Simone is for business and Ms. Gardner to me would make me think I’m in trouble with a school teacher.  I’m not the best writer and I’m restarted this blog many times.  I just didn’t know what to talk about..  I’d love to talk about what I’d want to do with my photography, my weight issues, and maybe some things I just want to get out.  So here goes~

In the summer I got a fancy DSLR camera and really thought of how I could give back to the community.  I love taking pictures of people in candid situations~  These past couple of months I’ve taken all types of pictures in different situations.  Birthday parties, family gatherings, disability events, gay rights events, animals, and the beautiful mother nature.  My good friend Ka’eo is helping me learn about my camera.  He’s taken me on photo shoots and I just love it.  That’s what inspired me to put “adventure” in the blog title.  I want to travel and climb to a scene of beauty..  To make amazing memories for me and others.  I simply can’t wait.  

I am 21 years old and 220 lbs..  I’m graduating in May and I really want to look good when I get that diploma.  Whenever a new semester starts I always get on my exercise binge.  Usually it doesn’t work out towards the end of the second month.  But my cliché resolution is sticking me to a treadmill at least 40 minutes a day.  I’m counting calories and trying to make good food choices.  I want to lose at least 30 lbs..  I think if vegetables and I got along better then this diet would probably be a lot easier..  

Well let’s hope I can keep this up with the rest of this diet and the adventures that meet me.  Here’s to 2012!  Love and peace to you all~!!